The Journey from a Nightmare/ Patrik

     My reflection    on the        objects

My journey from the nightmare and becoming the object was challenging and so inspiring to the future. This module definitely helped my creativity and brought my ideas to life. Based on the story from the Grimm´s tale Hanzel and Gretel and  how they fall into the nightmare and try to find a way back I managed to work with different objects to discover abstract both physical and vocal elements and see what works better. Thanks to researchs, readings and performances like Wiepole, Wiepole and Cafe Muller from Pina Bausch my idea of what I want was clear. 
My key focus is to  actually become the object and let the object manipulate me, break my body and see how far and close we can go from each other. It was not easy to use Kantor´s technique and play with the agencies but I think at the end me and the group have managed to build a strong manifesto and piece that shows the difference between the liveness and deadness. With the current situation and online creative process it was very different to select which objects are dead or live but I think the border was too tiny that makes actual power and makes the piece interesting to watch.
Firstly I was using a wood material, later a red moon and thanks to the quarantine place I found the box which made my decision to use it for sure. The box was slowly waking up and falling into the nightmare and later trying to escape. Kantor said: ´´ Without an actor, the object was a lifeless wreck. On the other hand, the actors were conditioned by those same objects their gestures and actions were influenced by the objects´´ (Tadeusz Kantor, Rozwoj moich sczenicznych) So the the relationship between me and actor should be very close, almost biological symbiosis. It can not be separated.
The box represents everything I wanted and thanks to feedback I tried to use my fantasy even more and find the extremes and different weights possibilities. I know if I performed live I could go even more extreme and play even more with stillness or small details.